How to overcome depression and suicidal thoughts?

Question

Hello doctor,

I am an old female. I am doing engineering from one of the finest colleges but still, I feel like a disappointment to my family, especially my mother. She wanted me to be a doctor but I could not get the marks to get into medicine. Now and then she curses me for not fulfilling her dreams. She even says I will get peace when you die. So many people die every day. Why cannot I have those times I feel I should die but I do not want to suicide I have cut myself many times nothing fatal but cutting calms me down. Please tell me how to live knowing you are a disappointment to everyone.

Answer 1

Hello,

Welcome to icliniq.com

I read your query and understand your concern. First of all, I like to congratulate you for taking the very first step which is seeking help. I understand that you are dealing with stress but it does not mean that you are disappointing everyone. Your mother's cursing does not mean that you are a failure but it indicates that she is trying to fulfill her wishes through you. She is trying to project what she wanted to achieve in her own life through you and feeling disappointed when you get a slightly lower mark. I like to inform you that you are a bright child and not a disappointment. I also like to inform you that a psychiatrist is the best person who can help you in this situation. In case seeing an in-person psychiatrist is not possible you can come for an online video consultation which can be done from the comfort of your bedroom. There is an immense need to have proper counseling to cope with these situations and I do not think it can be covered in this question-and-answer format. I hope this helps you. Feel free to contact me for any further queries.

Thank you.